Little Life Update

It's been a while since I blogged, and I thought to myself this morning, "Who cares?" Well, I care.

There were a few different things I considered blogging about over the past week or two, but I just didn't have enough of anything to give you a good blog post. Well, it's the little things that count, and they sure do add up! Now I have more than enough to tell you, that will be more than "Hi blog, that's all. See ya."

Well first of all, I should mention the garden. The day after I planted it, we had a huge storm that washed away pretty much everything. All that grew was corn, sunflowers, some cantaloupe, and a squash plant. So, last week my father-in-law came over and tilled the entire thing up, made nice pretty rows, and the ground was nice and soft again. I replanted everything, and over the past few days, Mike has set me up a new sprinkler system. It's four sprinklers that mount on the top of T-posts, and they are aimed so that each one waters a quarter of the garden. They are up higher, so when (if) plants grow, it will still be able to reach everything. We're just waiting now to see if they actually grow this time. If nature tells me yet again that I am not meant to have a garden this year, then I will finally listen. This is my last attempt... let's hope something grows! On the bright side though, the corn and sunflowers are doing very well. If sprouts start coming up in the next week, then I can start posting Garden Updates like I did last year.

Next, we move onto the kitchen. We have been under construction for a while now, and things seem to be at a stand-still. Which of course is my own fault, since right now the next step is sanding and applying texture (both of which are my job). We did recently install a brand new dishwasher, the first that I have ever owned! I'm so excited about it, too. Dishes are finally ALL done, and have been staying done. It's as easy as unloading it in the morning, loading it throughout the day and turning it on before bed. Now we just need a new dryer... I know, that has nothing to do with the kitchen. But it does slow me down as far as household chores go. It broke a while back, and with hopes of it being fixed quickly, laundry began piling up. It finally did get fixed, and it worked perfectly... for one day, and three loads. When it broke a second time, I gave up. I had no hope of it working again, and I could not wait so long to do laundry again. So as soon as the weather cleared up outside (about a week later) I began washing loads of laundry and hanging them out on the line outside. I have to hang them either outside the yard, or high enough so the dog can't reach them, because all she sees is chew toys. At least it's getting done, I suppose.

Then we have my doctor appointments. We started setting them up regularly, every two weeks. Yesterday's appointment I finally let down a few walls and started actually discussing real problems and issues, rather than just being vague and skipping around. I'm not going to go into detail, but I will say that I have a homework assignment before my next appointment: set up a date with my husband! Just me and him, alone, no kids, no friends--just the two of us spending time together, talking, hanging out, maybe taking our time and really enjoying a meal together, or cuddling up to a movie. Just being "us" again, and remembering why we got married in the first place... who we are as a couple has nothing to do with the kids; we were "us" before we were "all of us" if you get what I mean. My doctor did also bring up the "M" word yesterday... medication. It was just a passing comment, at the end of a session; nothing much was said about it and I didn't have much of a response to it either way. I'm sure it will be brought up again in future sessions, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I mean, I know I don't want to be medicated and relying on a pill to tell me how to feel, but I also don't want to rule out an option that has been proven to work and that could help me. I just don't know... all I know is, I want to get better and get away from the emotions I am having all too often. But I can already feel myself being lazy about things... I want to get better, but I don't want to put forth any effort or work to do so. Such a vicious cycle.

Well, other than that, life goes on. I feel a bit overwhelmed sometimes, knowing that I have to take care of the kids, the animals, the garden, the pool, the house, the cooking, the cleaning... but I guess this is the job I signed up for. I feel like I get my break in the evenings, when I settle down for some World of Warcraft. As it is, I'm looking forward to playing tonight, because it's Wednesday--every Wednesday a few guildies and I get together and run Firelands. All this time and we still haven't killed Ragnaros yet... but we got him less than 50% last week, so I know we can totally do this. It seems like Dragon Soul is easier, which is crazy since it's newer. But as long as I'm running with friends and guildies, I'm happy.

And now, back to the real world for a few more hours. Back to laundry, dishes, sweeping, mopping, dusting, picking up toys, and keeping children entertained until their daddy comes home... and probably well beyond that as well.

PS: Thank you to whoever invented the slow cooker; your invention allows me to cook dinner perfectly on days when I'm too busy otherwise to do so. ♥